Doing better when we know better. ACTING OUT WHAT WE SPIT OUT.
Why is that so hard sometimes?
I mean we have the resources and tools right in front of us and we know what does and don't work for us, but yet it is so easy just to back down and do nothing.
I often laugh at myself because I am the inspiration and motivator to some, but when it comes to speaking to myself to do what I know I need to do, it becomes a mind battle.
I get lazy, frustrated, upset, worried and often have a pity party for Tae. lol
I have certain people I vent to and they give me all the encouragement in the world, stuff I ALREADY KNOW, but nah I'd rather just sit here and pout. Hoping and wishing my super hero will save the day.
When does it stop? When will I grow up?
I'm going to be 29 in less than 30 days and that's 1 more year to go until I hit the big 3-0.
So will I take off my bib and put on my grown woman heels and start fighting my battles like I know I should? Or will I keep going around the same circle another year of my life? I wonder if it's a genetic thing or lack of support? I mean to get people in the mood to not want to move or do as much versus others who seem to have their support system intact.
Am I that lonely?
I mean I chose who I want to connect with, but it still seems like there's something missing. I often wonder what God is up to because I know there's a season for everything, but I'm ready to get out of this one and go to the next.
But am I ready?
Someone told me I'm the type of person who will get so close to accomplishing something,but once I get to that last step, I back down.
I laughed because that sounds about right. I am my own worse enemy.
We all can be our own worst critic when we have a million and one people giving us the thumbs up to keep going.
I must say I am a work in progress, but I can't use that phrase as an excuse to not push myself the the limit I know I need to in order to move on.
So, to all those who may be in this season of life, I suggest taking a self-inventory and see what the root of the problem is. What is holding you back?
I know I am definitely going to do some self-exploring and praying. I want to progress on a daily basis.
Like Nelson Mandela said "The greatest glory in living lies not in never failing, but in rising every time we fall."
So keep going mommies, our work is not finished yet.
