I have a question. Does family being present in your life make a difference in how you are as a person and a mother?
I mean we grow up in families and some people don't really have that bond with other members of their families like most do.
Do you think that can be an issue on one's self esteem as they get older? I feel it can make a world of a difference if you have a close bond with the family you were born into because that's where your support is supposed to come from. Right?
The love of a family is supposed to be stronger than any outside love, but in this world, it seems to be rare to know any families that show love but spread more selfishness.
I may be speaking for myself and I may hurt a few feelings, but I am speaking my truths and looking through my eyes.
As a mother and creating my own family, it hurts to know that my boys don't really know both sides of their families as they are growing up. I guess maybe it's my fault for not being more involved or taking the steps to include myself, but you have to feel included to want to be involved right?
I don't want any self-pity from anyone as I am writing this blog, but sometimes I wish pride would die and love would arise.
I don't want my boys growing up and being divided because of the different things they may like as individuals. I do want to to be that mother, they can come to about anything and have Sunday dinners with. I would include anybody they bring in their lives into my home, as long as i see nothing wrong with them, and make them feel welcomed.
I must say I have a lot of wishes and hopes for my family (mom and dad's side) but right now as I am getting older, I am numb to the fact I even want any of them involved now. Of course, it's never to late for change but why does family often just become strangers as we grow older.
Social media has become our connection and comments on pictures we post have become our conversations.
Our differences in life, our taste of music and how we live have separated us to live life on our own. Usually we make friends become like our family. Is this wrong? Was this part of God's plan?
It's so easy for us to diss our family then to let go of unhealthy relationship with an outsider. Why is that?
I mean I can list a million reasons on why I think that is, but I wont.
I just want to want know, WHY sometimes. This only pushes me to be better, as a person and a mother. I know God has a plan and sometimes maybe what we want is not what we need on our own journey of life.
So maybe, things are the way they are for a reason. I just have to be patient.
